The Burden Of Service

You know, people never think about the person who listens to them and helps them with all of their problems. What about that friend? The one who listens. The one who solves your problems with you. Who plays therapist. Who always gives you advice. Don't they have problems too? And I'm sure we've all said, 'If you've ever got a problem, just tell me. I'll be there.' But how often do we mean it? And even if we do, would they really come to us? I'm one of those people who listens, but never voices her own problems. I feel like I'm burdening people when I admit there's something bothering me. They don't deserve that trouble anymore than I do. I don't want to give it to them. But listening to so many problems, helping with them, and dealing with my own........It's a massive burden. I love helping, I do. It makes me feel great. But after a while, you get to a point when you're wondering why no one ever offers help anymore. And then you reach the point in it all where you don't want their help anymore. You don't know what you'd do if they even offered help, because you've gone so long without anyone offering. You wouldn't know what to do. You insist everything's perfect and there's no problem in your life that you can't solve. And no one ever notices until it's too late. Until your life comes crumbling down and no one can help you. 'Tis the burden of service.
                                                                     ~The Blogging Fangirl