Dress Shopping

I went out dress shopping with my mom, grandma, younger sister, and soon-to-be stepdad today. It was to get dresses for my mom's 2nd marriage. My grandma constantly comments on clothes that I'm thinking about buying or that I try on. She always thinks they're too short or show too much skin, especially if it's one with a hole in the back. I tried out five different dresses, finally ending up with one I really like. But while I was in the dressing room, changing back into my clothes, I could hear them murmuring, and my grandma commenting on the dresses. My mind decided that they must all be talking about the dresses I'd tried on and how they made me look. I thought I was being bullied by my own family, and that seriously hurt me. I decided to go shopping on my own to find something so that I could have time to cool down and relax. My mom followed me and ended up pulling the dress I was wearing so she could catch up to me. She kept wanting to talk, but she needed to leave me alone. Not because I was angry. Because I needed time to myself to calm down. Just a note for everyone, talking to someone while they're upset is not a good idea. You need to wait a little while so everyone can calm down. Anyway, I still haven't told her about why I was upset and why I left. I think my reaction has to do with my depression, and the fact that I was bullied as a kid. I didn't realize that I'd been bullied until I became a teenager though, so there wasn't anything I could do. I don't know..... I just know it made my mood worse.

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