Post-Break Up

I feel awful today. I got dumped on Sunday, so my depression has been acting up more than usual. My girlfriend mentioned breaking up before, but we put it off and thought we could work it out. I've been swamped with things to do, so I haven't been able to give her the attention she needed. And when something made me want to cry, I shut down so I wouldn't cry in front of her. But that's just the type of person that I am and I doubt that will change. But there's someone else that she's in love with now and she left me for them. Not only that, but the girl she's leaving me for is the one who sent me the message to break up. We were in a group chat. I wished them the best and agreed to all be friends. I feel like shit though. I don't know why I ever thought this would all work out.
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