Closing Night

Closing night tonight. The night of nights. ( :) )  Hopefully everything will go well, but we'll see. It'll be interesting and I'm sorry to say that I won't be able to attend Senior Speeches this afternoon. I have to catch up on sleep and prepare to be Iago on Monday. But I'll send my love. Wish me luck (break a leg)!
                                                                     ~The Blogging Fangirl

Opening Night

Tonight was opening night of the play I'm in. We only missed one line in the scene I was in, and it wasn't a major one. No one noticed it but us, as far as we know. In general, everything seemed to go well. My hair seems to be clean now, after a long shower to get the hairspray out. One more performance tomorrow night and then I'll be finished. I don't really want to go to church tomorrow, so I hope the play will help me get out of it all together. We'll see. 
                                                                 ~The Blogging Fangirl 

Long Night

Tonight I've got a late practice. I'll be at school when you all see this. I'm staying after school today. I'll get myself dinner here and then go to rehearsal. It's going to be a long night, but we can't afford to slack off now. We open tomorrow night and it's got to be amazing. We close Saturday though. We'll see how things go. Wish me luck!
                                                                   ~The Blogging Fangirl

Late Rehearsal

I was supposed to get out of rehearsal at 5:30 pm tonight. I didn't leave the building until 6:30 pm because of notes and getting out of costume. I hate that I leave so late, but it's tech week. I have to stay there and make sure that I know what to do to make my part the best it can be. Though I don't know why the director waited to tell me that I was pronouncing 'lumbago' incorrectly. I've been saying it wrong for the past month! It's a long 'a', sounds like lum-bay-go. Who knew? Definitely not me. Anyway, things are going fairly well, so I'm looking forward to performing.
                                                                        ~The Blogging Fangirl

Almost There And Progress

Tomorrow, we're officially halfway through Tech Week. I've really only had a couple of notes for things to work on. I need to be louder, since I'm farther back on stage when I first start my part of the scene. And I need to make sure I have an umbrella and the hat that the director is going to bring in for me. My costume feels a little awkward, but I guess it works for the time period. I have to make sure I get my black tights to wear.

In other news, California has passed a law to make it legal for any transgender person to use whichever bathrooms and join whichever sports teams they choose. If a transgender person identifies as a female, she can use the women's restrooms and join girls sports teams, and vice versa. This is a great step forward for California, and hopefully the USA. 
                                                                 ~The Blogging Fangirl

Tech Week

So here we are. The beginning of tech week. This is the time that I generally start complaining, I hate being around people, and I don't want to talk to anyone. I come home with a headache and a bad mood. This may be especially true this time, since I've been snowed out of a week of rehearsals, shoving me straight into this tech week.  I have to be off book for my one scene today. I know my lines. I'm just worried I'll forget them or mess them up once I'm actually on stage. Then, I have to memorize lines for my English project too. So I may just end up quoting Shakespeare on stage. Wish me luck!
                                                                  ~The Blogging Fangirl

New Phone And Delay

I got a smart phone today! The battery life isn't very good, but there's more on it. I don't like that it's so big, but the big screen come's in handy. It's nice and I've been playing around with it to figure out how to work it. Anyway, I've got a two hour delay again for school tomorrow, so my first period doesn't start until 9:30 am. I still have rehearsal, so I have to make sure I have my lines memorised. I'm excited, but nervous at the same time. I have my costume now, so at least that's something. 
                                                                    ~The Blogging Fangirl

Late Post

Sorry this post is so late! Honestly, I forgot to update until now. But things are going well. I'm really just glad for the weekend, even though I've only had one day of school. I can't really say much here, so I'll just give you a picture that I think is important.

A transgender teen committed suicide. He was constantly misgendered, people referring to him as a her. I can't say much about it, for lack of time, but you can learn more if you search it.

                                                                  ~The Blogging Fangirl

Delayed (School) Arrival

I have rehearsal tonight, then my old school's fish fry, since it's Lent. I also have to write three letters, since I haven't gotten started on that. (See Previous Post about what I'm doing for Lent.) I've finished all of my snow day homework, so I'm ready to turn that in. The reason I'm posting this now is because I have some time before my ride gets here, since I have a late arrival. I don't need to leave for about half an hour. I've also checked up on my new Facebook page, The Outcasts. Check it out:

https://www.facebook.com/pages/The-Outcasts/561751823960441

                                                                  ~The Blogging Fangirl

Last Snow Day

I have to go back to school tomorrow. I'm on a delayed schedule though, so at least my classes are shorter. I have rehearsal tomorrow until 5:30, I think. I'd have to check the time. But I have to get a costume, make sure my character shoes will work, figure out how to do my hair and make up, and make sure I have my lines memorized. But for today, I woke up near 1:00 pm, checked my rp email, and rewatched Pride (2014). I've attached the link I use to watch it to this post. I hop you all enjoy it!
http://www.alluc.com/l/Pride-2014-HDRip-X264-PLAYNOW-mp4/748bmz44  
                                                                  ~The Blogging Fangirl

Ash Wednesday And Snow Day

Happy Ash Wednesday, to all those observing it today. For Lent, I'm not really giving up anything. Instead, I'm focusing on being thankful. I'm going to make a list of people who have touched me life. For each day of Lent, I'll write one letter to one of the people on my list telling them how much I appreciate them and how thankful I am to have them in my life. I don't know if I'll ever let the people I write to read my letters. We'll see when we reach the end of Lent. 

In other news, I don't have school again tomorrow. It's a snow day, and I don't have to sign into online school either. It's a day I can take to myself to catch up on work I still haven't done and just enjoy myself. I kind of hope we don't have school tomorrow either, just to round off this snow week. Of course, that would mean I return to tech week. Wish me luck!
                                                                    ~The Blogging Fangirl

Online School

Today is an online school day for me. Technically, I'm in school right now. But I'm at home. I've printed out the worksheets I need to do, but I get to do them at my own pace, in my own time. I have the t.v. on and I don't have to do everything at exactly the time the teachers say and finish whenever the class ends. I have time to do as I please. And whenever I finish, it's not like there's another thing for me to do. I'm just finished. I turn it in when I go back to school. There's still some things I have to do, but I'm nearly finished. I really just can't figure out Lewis Structures. The videos make it seem easy, but it's pretty hard.
                                                                        ~The Blogging Fangirl

To Have Rehearsal, Or Not To Have Rehearsal

It's snowing a lot here today. It's freezing cold and the snow hasn't stopped falling since last night. I don't know exactly how much snow we're expected to get here. But I'm supposed to have rehearsal this afternoon at 3 pm. They've closed all Catholic and public schools today though, so that should mean rehearsal has been cancelled. I've texted the director, but she hasn't answered me yet. I'll wait until about 2:30 pm. If she hasn't answered by then, I'll just tell her I can't make it either way because of the snow. There's no way I can go out when it's coming down like this. The roads will be too slick and it'll be hard to get to rehearsal, much less to get home. I just hope that she doesn't plan on having rehearsal today. I don't want to end up missing something. 
                                                                ~The Blogging Fangirl

Stepmother

I'm with my dad right now, so this is a scheduled post. There's not much to say, really. I don't like being with him at all. I don't like him most of the time, though I don't think there's really a major reason behind it. But I don't like his wife either. And no, his current wife is not my mom. His current wife is his second. His first wife was my mom. They split when I was about 10 years old. About a year later, my dad got remarried to his current wife. She's somewhat nice, but she likes to make fun of people. She tends to make jokes at the expense of other people, and they can be hurtful. I don't like her and it makes me hate seeing him too. My dad argues with her and he's made her cry. But he's also made my older sister cry because he doesn't want to listen to her when she complains about our stepmother. I complain about her to my mom instead.
                                                                 ~The Blogging Fangirl

Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day!!!!!! If you don't have an official Valentine already, then consider me your Valentine. :) Enjoy a few hearts and Valentine's Day images for the day.

                                                                       ~The Blogging Fangirl

Trimming Nails

I'll be going to my dad's this weekend and celebrating my little brother and sister's birthday, though it isn't until next weekend. Next weekend is my mom's weekend, so we'll be with her. So my dad decided to celebrate this Sunday. I'm nervous though, because I have to clip John's nails at some point this weekend. In case you don't know, John is my hedgehog. His nails have gotten too long and I'm hoping to cut them tonight. Hopefully it goes well. I'm really just worried he'll move and I'll end up hurting him. I have little nail clippers, so hopefully that will help. We'll just have to see then.
                                                                     ~The Blogging Fangirl

Enjoy The Pictures

There's not much to say today, other than that I don't want to go to my dad's this weekend. But that can be saved for my Friday post. :)
Instead, today, have some pictures.

The pictures are as follows: Jim Moriarty (Magpie) and Sebastian Moran (Hawk/Falcon, I'm not sure), Fantasy AU Mystrade, Demons Run poem from Doctor Who, Why people run to fictional characters, and Castiel with kittens. Enjoy!

                                                                     ~The Blogging Fangirl

Tuesday And Rehearsal

Today was 'Tropical Tuesday' at my school for Spirit Week. It's been fun and I wish I could say it's finally Friday. But unfortunately, it's only Tuesday. I can't wait for the week to end though. I have two days of rehearsal this week, then Friday off. I have rehearsal, but no school on Monday though, which is kind of disappointing. I have to be off book by then, but it's not too much. I just have a little conversation, and a song to memorize. The focus during that conversation though is on me and the person I talk to, which makes me kind of nervous. I have to make sure I can be loud too. We'll see how it goes.
                                                                ~The Blogging Fangirl

Tired Of It

I'm getting so tired of hearing about 'what I should be doing' to raise money for my school's fundraiser. I brought in all the money I need to. I don't need everyone telling me what to do when it comes to this. If they think they have ideas to get the money that's better than what I usually do, then they can just collect the money themselves. I'm so tired of dealing with people. I just want to fall off the edge of the earth and die. I'm done. I just wish people would shut up and leave me alone. I've been feeling sick all day today. My stomach's been bothering me, my head hurts, and I'm tired of people trying to tell me how to do things and who to talk to and all of this. I just need some rest, I think. I hope so.
                                                                       ~The Blogging Fangirl

Spirit Week

Spirit week is this week at my school and I'm really hoping that I can bring my money in tomorrow and just get it over with. I don't want to have to deal with this any more. My mom told my aunts that I was too chicken to ask them for money, so she did it for me. I told her before then that I just didn't want to deal with people. I didn't tell her that I'm just feeling really depressed. I really feel like I'm depressed. And I was at a point where, when anyone approached me, I just felt like I wanted nothing to do with them. There were certain people that I felt I could talk to and I didn't mind them being around. But most people I just wanted to push away so I could be on my own. She apparently didn't understand this and it really irritated me and just seemed to make things even worse. I just feel awful when I think of it.
                                                            ~The Blogging Fangirl

Same-Sex Couples

Today was actually pretty good. I slept in until around 11:30 pm, then showered and relaxed. I started working on wedding plans for myself and my girlfriend. Yes, it's very, very early for us to think about weddings, especially considering the same-sex marriage law problems, but we like to think about it. And as long as I'm on the topic of 'same-sex marriage' and things, there's something I'd like to say. An opinion. I'd rather people refer to couples as 'sames-sex' instead of 'gay'. There are so many different sexual orientations. There's no way for you to know if both people in the relationship are gay or if they're any other sexual orientation. So please, if you see a couple that's not a male and female, refer to them as a same-sex couple unless they ask you to call them something else. Thank you.
                                                                  ~The Blogging Fangirl

Worried About A Fundraiser

I'm worried. I have to raise $100 for my school fundraiser and I'm not doing very well. Right now, I just don't want to deal with people, so I don't want to call a bunch of people and ask for money. Of course, then my dad's going to want to know why I didn't call my grandparents and ask them. Honestly, they wouldn't give much anyway. My dad gave $10.  My grandma gave $20. Honestly, I could probably pay the rest myself. I have money from petsitting and babysitting. And my mom will give me money. Her boyfriend might too. I don't know. We'll have to see. But I need to get the money by Wednesday and I'm just worried about it.
                                                                      ~The Blogging Fangirl

Second Rehearsal

My second play rehearsal was today. It's been going well. I only have a few lines, no monologues, and I sing a short song with some other people. Then I leave until the bows at the end. It's not a huge part, but the focus of the conversation part of the scene is on me and the person I talk to. I hope I don't mess up the lines.
                                                                ~The Blogging Fangirl

First Rehearsal

Today's my first play rehearsal. I'll get my script and start learning my lines. I'm not sure if I have much to say or not. For one role, all I really had to do, other than learn music and dances, was cross the stage and skip. That was it. I wonder if this will be another one of those roles. I may not have much to say. We'll see.
                                                                ~The Blogging Fangirl

Today......

So we finally celebrated my grandma's birthday tonight, even though it was over the weekend. It was nice and filled with smiles and laughter. 

Something else that happened today: My girlfriend told me she was starting to feel like I don't love her. She has social anxiety and she's very, very introverted, not to mention depressed. She has no idea about the possibility that I may be bipolar. No one does. I don't want to worry them with my depression. I plan on getting myself tested when I'm older though. She said she always sees me smiling and she's always so upset and she feels like I don't notice. We talked and I did what I could to make her feel better. I'm starting to feel like she's wanting to break up though, which makes me want to cry. I want to do something to make it up to her, but all I can think of right now is how much I want to cut. I'm doing my best, but it's been hard. Wish me luck.
                                                              ~The Blogging Fangirl

Crushed By An Expression

I felt wonderful for most of the day, but had one incident which really dampened my mood. It may sound like nothing to you, but it made me want to cry and I'm getting really, really depressed just thinking about it. And yes, I mean depressed in the literal sense. It makes me want to cut myself. It makes me want to curl up and die. I'll tell you what happened and it's going to sound like something really simple and nothing important, but it ruined my day. I was talking to one of my friends when we had free time in class, but everyone else took the time to work on our questions for what we're reading. My friend and I were called over by the teacher and lectured for not doing the work when we were given class time to do so. He really just seemed disappointed an worn out and that really hit me. I hate that look on people. It crushed me and I felt awful for the rest of the day. I nearly cried in class. I'm almost crying now. I hated it.
                                                                     ~The Blogging Fangirl

This Weekend

This is going to be short, because I can't be on the computer much longer. I was at my dad's this weekend, so the post that I made yesterday was scheduled. I think I'm going to try that from now on, so that I can still update regularly and won't have to warn you all when I won't be home. My period started yesterday, so I was in excruciating pain on Saturday. It was incredibly difficult to find an comfortable position, so I was awake longer than I wanted to be. Thankfully, day 2 of my period felt much better, with only minimal cramps. Hopefully, tomorrow's even better. 
                                                                       ~The Blogging Fangirl