Nervousness and Tears

I hate presentations. I can do powerpoints or videos. I can present posters if I can stand at the back of the room, where no one's looking at me. But if I have to stand in front of everyone, knowing they're all watching me and listening to my every word, I get way too nervous. I cry giving speeches, or at least tear up. I don't know why I'm like this or why it inly really happens with speeches, but I hate it. I can't do much about it though. I have to give presentations. I just need to deal with it. It doesn't happen when I perform. I can get on stage and play my part without crying. But that's different. I'm not me on stage. It's my character. Besides, I can hardly see the audience when the stage lights are on. If I can't see them watching me, I'm not as nervous. Of course, I still get nervous before performing, but it's not as bad. I'll just have to figure it all out and deal with it.

                                                                   ~The Blogging Fangirl