Sickness During Play Rehearsal Time

Fun, fun, fun. I have rehearsal tomorrow and guess what? I know have a cough that makes itself even worse when I sing. Not only that, but I'm starting to sniffle. I can't get a cold. Not now. We have about a month before the play opens and I can't get sick. We can only hope this is something that will be easy to cure quickly. If not, I may as well be screwed. The director will be angry that I can't project my notes, but that's just how it is. Hope everything goes well.
                                                                 ~The Blogging Fangirl

Clothes And Projects

I have new clothes!!!!!! Some family friends dropped off clothes for us (me and my siblings and stepsiblings) to try on and divide amongst ourselves. So I have lots of new shirts and skirts and even a couple of dresses and some shoes. I love this! I'm not one for fashion, but I always love getting new clothes.

In other news, I have two projects due this week. I finally finished the written part of one, but I need to finish the visual portion. The other I just have to turn in the outline for it tomorrow. I can do that easily. Wish me luck!

                                                                      ~The Blogging Fangirl

This Weekend With My Father

More reasons why I hate going over to my dad's apartment every other weekend. There are multiple reasons I'd rather stay with my mom. This weekend just added more reasons. His temper. He can't control it. I have it, but I've learned how to let it erupt without getting myself in trouble or making other people angry. I can control it. He can't. And he ends up making a huge deal out of nothing. This weekend, it was because I couldn't peel potatoes. He cooks potatoes for breakfast (AMAZING, by the way). My older sister peels them and I cute them up. Well, this weekend they were insisting I do it. I told them I couldn't and my dad yelled at me for it. My sister argued about it. I know she tried to help too, but arguing doesn't help. I honestly wouldn't care if I never saw either of them again. I've forgiven them every other time, but not again. I've had enough. I tried to forgive and forget, but I can't do it anymore. I won't be walked on again.

                                                                  ~The Blogging Fangirl

Not Much

Early update, since I won't be able to update later. Nothing much is going on. I have two projects I need to work on, plus memorizing my music for the play. I'm juggling it all well so far. None of my school work has slipped. But I need to keep it up and work on all of it so everything can be done to the best of my ability.

                                                              ~The Blogging Fangirl

Play (Theatre) CD

So, the CD I got to help learn my music for the play? Doesn't help at all. The parts for some songs are different, the notes aren't what we're singing and you can't even hear some of the parts I need to sing. The director told us not to get it at first because we wouldn't be able to hear our parts. Then she lectured us for not having one. So I got one and it turns out it's pretty much useless to me. So whoop-de-do. I hate this. But at least I have more music to listen to now.

                                                                   ~The Blogging Fangirl

Tired Of This

Sorry I'm a bit late today. Things have been hectic just today and I'm trying to juggle it all. So, today's my mom's birthday, yay! Besides that, my older sister has decided to complain about my  mom always having her boyfriend over at our house. (My parents are divorced, Dad remarried, Mom dating.) She's asked my grandma if she can move in with her sometime because she's tired of dealing with my mom. She did the same thing with my dad. She needs to get over herself and move on. She can't completely disconnect from both of our parents and expect their full support whenever she thinks it's convenient. It's not like that. I just.....UGH! I'm tired of dealing with this.

                                                                ~The Blogging Fangirl

Insanity

I'm going insane!!!!!! Everything I've got going on is keeping me busy and tired and just.....AGH!!!!!! I can handle it though. I know I can and I am. Play rehearsal is going well, but it's busy and intense sometimes. It can be fun, but we have little time and lots to do. I just hope I can improve the volume of my lines and make sure I don't lose my voice. Between singing high notes in Chorus at school and singing various notes during play rehearsal, my voice is wrecked. I hope it's okay though. I think I'll get some honey and tea and try to soothe it. Gotta remember water and getting a CD to practice the music.

                                                                    ~The Blogging Fangirl

My Beliefs

I've been thinking a lot recently about people who use the Bible and Scripture as an excuse for hating people who fall in love with people of the same sex. I've actually looked through Leviticus, which has the passage most often used to claim God hates gay people. In my personal opinion, the book of Leviticus is a stupid book full of stupid rules. It lists things that other groups of people have already done that the writer thinks are wrong. Among them is that a man shall not lie with another man in the same way that he lies with a woman. I don't agree with this. Think about it. This is the same book of the Bible that says women are unclean for the week of their period and anything they touch or anyone who touches them is also unclean. Any man who has an emission of seed is unclean. It's stupid! God made these things happen inside humans. He wouldn't damn us for something He made happen. In my opinion, the same goes for same sex love. Consider this: You're writing a book/drawing a picture/whatever you like to do. You spend years creating this, pour your heart and soul into it, and do everything you can to make it wonderful. Are you going to throw it into the fireplace because it has a rip on one page or the cover's a little bent? You put all that work into something. I doubt you'd burn it just because one little thing isn't perfect. I believe the same is true of God. He made us. He spent time working on us and gave us this entire world so we could be happy and love and be loved. Yes, He wanted us to procreate. But He also wanted us to be happy. I refuse to believe that the God who created all of this beauty and created us in His image and likeness, who gave us free will to choose for ourselves and who made us so it was even possible to love someone of the same sex, would damn us for doing exactly that. Now, this is my opinion. I understand others have different opinions and I encourage you to voice them here and everywhere. But that's just it. This is my opinion. I've never personally chatted with God to see what He really wants. If you can prove me wrong on any point, go right ahead. I encourage all of you to challenge me and debate with me. If I'm wrong, prove it to me. You're welcome to. And if you can do that, I'll admit I'm wrong. But until then, this is what I believe and it shall remain this way.

                                                                ~The Blogging Fangirl

Rude Rp'ers

If you're rp'ing with someone and you don't like the prompt they use, you can disconnect. Or you could give constructive criticism. Don't just type something offensive like, "What the f**k?" And, if you don't understand anything about the prompt, ask in a nice way. If you think your question might be misinterpreted when it's read by someone else, just put something in there to make sure they know it's meant honestly and nicely. Like, I don't mean to be rude, but I was wondering..... Don't be rude! Please, please, please, please, please!

                                                                     ~The Blogging Fangirl

The Party

The party was great last night. I ended up coming home earlier than expected because I got tired, but the part I was there for was fantastic. There were s'mores, a pool, a fire pit, a hot tub, a jukebox, food, sugar, caffeine, and more. I loved it! I wish I could've stayed longer, but I would've ended uo asleep in my friend's driveway if I had stayed longer XD. Anyway, I loved it, it was great, and I have candy. Yay!

                                                                      ~The Blogging Fangirl 

Parties

Normally, I'd post later at night, but I have a party to go to tonight, so I'm posting now. I'm excited and nervous for it at the same time. But this is how I always am when it comes to social gatherings. I get really excited about it, but then I start thinking of bad situations. For instance, there's going to be a pool at this party. It's been cool recently, so there likely won't be any swimming. There still could be though. I worry about this because I won't be bringing my bathing suit or towel. They're at my dad's apartment. Besides that, I'm on my period and that makes it a *bit* harder to swim. Anyway, I also worry about the kareoke. My voice has been a bit rough lately. But I'm super excited about the cake and getting to spend time with my friends! I'll let you all know how it goes when I can.
                                                                      ~The Blogging Fangirl

Early Dismissal Days

I love early dismissal days. They're in the top ten on my list of favorite things. And no, I don't mean to put that song in your head. But if I did, :) . Anyway, I'm glad I got to come home early. I have food and wifi here, as well as soda. And I don't have to walk to go get it.  I can also rp and check email and blog from a bed. I don't have to worry about wifi or losing connections or my battery dying. I love early dismissal days!!!!!

                                                                ~The Blogging Fangirl

My Day (Fridays and Periods)

I keep thinking it's Friday. Yesterday, I thought it was Friday and the last day of my period. Sadly, it wasn't. :( It was Wednesday and the first day of my period. Unfortunately, the first day of my period always seems to be the worst. The cramps are awful and the bleeding is generally heavier than it is on other days. Thankfully, today wasn't so bad. There weren't any cramps and I haven't needed to change my pad yet. I'll change it before I go to sleep tonight. Speaking of sleep, I'd really like some of that. But it seems like I'm wide awake after I shower and I can't shower in the mornings, so I'm awake for a while at night. Unless I work on homework, which puts me to sleep. At least I have a noon dismissal tomorrow.

                                                                   ~The Blogging Fangirl

Menstrual Cycle (Bleeding For A Week Straight)

Fun day today. Not only did I have rehearsal, but my period started. So my uterus has been committing suicide all day while at the same time, slowly murdering me. Fun, right? And this wonderfulness will last for at least another few days, if not a full week. Yay! Not. Why can't I just get a text or even just bleed for one day to let me know I'm not pregnant? It would make my life so much easier and more convenient. Not to mention, I have a party to go to this weekend. I don't want to be bleeding during that and worrying about my pad or tampon leaking. This ought to be a fun week......

                                                                      ~The Blogging Fangirl

Done With People

I am so done with people. Even in just one day, I've had enough. People seem to have a habit of butting into each other's lives. Sometimes it's for good reason, sometimes it's just being nosy. But I'm getting tired of it. I've heard plenty of people who ask if someone's gay as if it's a bad thing. Like if a person is gay, he/she has some kind of disease that might infect other people. I've heard others talk about other people's relationships and what's wrong with them. It's not your relationship! Yeah, I realize some people are trying to be good friends and help. But sometimes people just need to realize things for themselves, no matter how hard it is. If you really are trying to be a good friend, go for it. But realize that the other person may get angry about what you have to say and it could cause a huge argument. Sorry for this rant, but these things have been bothering me today and I needed to vent.

                                                                      ~The Blogging Fangirl

This Week

I have rehearsal in a couple of days and a weird schedule on Friday. It'll definitely be interesting to handle, especially with my lack of sleep. I also have a party to go to on Saturday.

Besides that, someone's been trying to hack my gmail again. I think I've deterred it now. I hope so anyway. I just want them to stay away permanently. I don't see the point of trying to hack someone's gmail anyway. Is it just pride? Because I see no other point to trying. Even pride is just a bad reason to try to hack it.

                                                                       ~The Blogging Fangirl

Life

Not a long blog update tonight, since I've got to go babysit soon. Someone tried to hack my email again. Had to change the password. Missing my step-sister's cheering at a football game (not that I mind). May not be able to go to my grandma's house tonight. And that's about it. Sorry not much is happening with me. 

                                                              ~The Blogging Fangirl

9/11 Commentary (With Theology)

We were talking about 9/11 yesterday and some today. We talked about it and the tragedy of it. Along with that, we discussed God during the events of that unfortunate, tragic day. A lot of people lost faith in Him that day and ask how he could possibly let something like that happen. But my argument is that we were all given free will. God doesn't control our actions. Yes, religion played a big role during that day. But God didn't force those people to fly those planes into those buildings. I believe that He spoke to everyone. Whether or not they listened or interpreted His will the way He intended depends on the person. Besides that, no matter where in the world you were at that moment the planes crashed, it was a significant event with a huge impact. I'm sorry it ever happened and I wish it hadn't, but all we can do about it right now is learn from it and remember those we lost.

                                                                       ~The Blogging Fangirl

Sleeping And RP

I feel so bad! I fell asleep last night while I was rp'ing!!!!!!! It was so cute too! It was a fluff-filled Mormor parent!lock rp. Sebastian had texted Jim about their 8-month-old son, Alexander, not taking his nap and Seb couldn't get him to sleep no matter what he did. Jim came in and sang to him and it was all so sweet and I felt so bad because I fell asleep!!!!!! So, if whomever I was rp'ing with is reading this now, I'M SORRY!!!!!!!!!

                                                                       ~The Blogging Fangirl

Hackers

I'm getting really tired of people trying to hack my account for gmail. Just last night, I had someone try. Thankfully, Google blocked them and alerted me, so I changed my password. It was someone in Houston, Texas around 11 pm. It really annoyed me and I want it to stop. I don't know why people feel the need to hack at all. It's not benefitting anyone when they hack accounts or send viruses. It's just stupid and awful and it needs to end.

                                                                        ~The Blogging Fangirl

Opionions

What is it with people who say they don't like gay people and claim it's wrong and gay people are going to Hell because the Bible said so? I could be wrong. I haven't read every passage in the Bible. But these are my favorites:

http://www.openbible.info/topics/loving_each_other

All of these have one thing in common. One common message: Love everyone and don't judge others.

I think we could all learn that lesson and could stand to be reminded. Everyone has opinions of their own and it's good to be passionate about them. But don't tell everyone else that their way is wrong because it's not just like yours. Take everyone else's opinions and suggestions into consideration. You never know, you might learn something.

                                                              ~The Blogging Fangirl

Ramble

My mind's decided it's Friday. I wish. I've known it was Monday all day, but my head keeps thinking it's Friday. I get really excited, only to be disappointed that it's still Monday. But at least......I don't know where I was going with that. I do that sometimes. I'll start off a sentence and have no idea where it's going. Sort of like this post. I was thinking of just complaining that it's not Friday, but now I'm just sort of rambling. Sorry if that annoys you. But it happens sometimes and you don't have to read it. It's your choice. Thanks to those of you who are reading this and talk to you soon!

                                                                     ~The Blogging Fangirl

Monday

SOOOOOOOOOOO not ready to go back to school tomorrow. But I have to. Unfortunately, it's not a long weekend this weekend, so I have to go back Monday. However, I get to wear a non-uniform shirt on Tuesday and I have rehearsal on Wednesday, so there's  a few perks. I just hope it's a good week and nothing really goes wrong. Wish me luck and I wish the same thing for all of you!

                                                                        ~The Blogging Fangirl

Rude People

Have any of you ever had that one person in your life that just expects you to do whatever they say just because they say it? Like you're their servant or something? Someone they hired to do their bidding? I don't care who they are. They could be related to me, married into my family, or a total stranger. You don't talk to me that way. It's different if you've hired me to do something. And even then a 'please' and 'thank you' is appreciated. But no. Apparently people don't understand that concept. They don't seem to comprehend that people don't like being told 'Do this'. Especially when they're doing something else in that moment. I've been tempted to smack people upside the head when they do that. Thankfully (for both of us) I haven't done it. But I consider it a lot.

                                                                       ~The Blogging Fangirl

RP Disconnect On Mobile Devices

Okay, so I want to go over an issue that's personal for me. It's not some life-changing, world-altering event or anything like that. It's about rp'ing over a mobile device. Sometimes, people rp using something like their phone or kindle fire or ipad or whatever. As I'm sure we all know, these don't always work the way we'd like them to. If someone disconnects in the middle of an rp, it doesn't always mean that they meant to do it. I've accidentally disconnected before. I've hit the button without meaning to simply because my on-screen keyboard wasn't working well. I've had my mobile device refresh pages at random. Sometimes, it's an rp that I was really enjoying and it decides to refresh the page and I lose the rp. I'm sorry if it happens to you or if I've disconnected n you and didn't mean to. But please do keep in mind that if someone disconnects, especially if it seems random or if it's in the middle of an rp, they may not have meant to. If you happen to find that person again with the same prompt, you may want to mention it to them. They may disconnect again, in which case you can probably assume they meant to do it the first time, or they may clarify and let you know that it was an honest mistake and then you can continue the rp or start a new one or whatever. So please, bear all of this in mind while you rp.

                                                                      ~ The Blogging Fangirl

Majors and Career Choices

I started thinking about careers today. There are so many things I enjoy and that I think would be good things for me to major in when it comes time for me to go to college. I like English, children, animals, acting, reading, writing, and multiple other things. It really is a shame I can't get a job rp'ing. :) But I've thought about various careers such as veterinarian, actor/actress, dog breeder, nanny, secret service agent, and Child Care Worker in an orphanage. I'd love to work with the kids in an orphanage. I've actually looked into a few different positions to get an idea of the different jobs there. Intake Coordinator, and Domestic Adoption Case Manager sound like the best fits for me. Of course, I alo enjoy the other things listed above and I can't decide just yet what to do. But I have time and hopefully find the answers. What do you all want to do for work?

                                                                      ~The Blogging Fangirl 

Rehearsals and Comments

Rehearsals start next Wednesday for me, for any of you all who are following that information from me. I only have to be there once a week, which makes things easier for me. At least until tech week, when everything and everyone goes insane. Until then, I'll be memorizing songs and possibly lines, then blocking and everything else I might need to do.

One more thing I want to add to this post:

If any of you ever want to ask me something, anything at all, you can leave me a message in the comments. If you don't want to be recognized, don't put a name or email address. Or you can leave a pseudonym on your comment. Any way you want to do it is fine. I'll answer the questions as best I can. Or, if you'd like to request a photo spam or fanfics or anything, or leave a prompt for me to write a fanfic, just leave it in the comments.

                                                                     ~The Blogging Fangirl

Guilt Trip

The fun has begun. Every time I spend a weekend away from my dad when I'm supposed to be with him, he tries to guilt trip me into doing things. He doesn't realize that it doesn't work with me. He can't just get me to do whatever he wants because I happened to skip spending a weekend with him. It doesn't work that way. Sometimes, I just need my space. I don't always want to be around him. With such a small, cold apartment, we have to be close together. I hate it. With my mom, I can have my own space and area to do my own things. I want to stay with my mom full-time, but that can't happen for a few more years. Right now, my dad still pays child support and has partial custody over me. I can't do anything about it except skip and weekend every now and again. Not only did he try to guilt trip my, though. He tried to use me as a means to get my older sister to come every once in a while again. But she wants no more to do with him than I do. He just can't seem to understand that.

                                                                  ~The Blogging Fangirl

Back To School

Ugh!!!!!! I'm so not ready to go back to school tomorrow. I need to get my work finished that's due the day I get back, but I don't want to. I wish I could live like I have these past few days. Living with my mom, rp'ing all day, blogging in the evenings, sleeping in and showering in the mornings. But, unfortunately, I can't. I have things I have to do that can't wait and that won't allow me to live like I have. Oh, well. It's my life and I'm going to live it.

                                                                      ~The Blogging Fangirl